Three most difficult things about Logan’s death
1. I’m suddenly not pregnant anymore, I’m reminded every time I look down at my none existent tummy, that hurts much more than the glaring, still healing, scar. I used to touch my tummy loads and know I was carrying a precious little gift, but no more. That sucks!
2. I have no cute little man to look forward to, he was due in June and suddenly I feel like I have nothing to look forward to, all my lists of “things to get for baby” “stuff to do before baby” “things to do with baby” MEAN NOTHING 🙁 except tears when I suddenly stumble upon a list.
3. We won’t be seeing any of his milestones, no first steps, no first teeth, no firsts for us, just one long last 🙁
(Suddenly thought all this when I walked pass mirror and saw my tummy, or lack there of, I suddenly got really sad and cried my eyes out-who knew I still had tears left- thought since sharing usually helps, I’d blog my feelings)
Here today, gone tomorrow. It makes one think…there is more to life then moaning about being preganant, the weight, the nauseousness, being uncomforatble ect. Cause in a wink God can take it away and leave you with nothing…and u would end up mourning not only the death of an angel but also the emptiness of a pregnancy….I enjoy your blogs, cause I am also preganant and this make me realise that it could be so much worse. So i enjoy being blessed in this way to be worthy in Gods eyes to carry his angel. I feel for you, and carry you in my prayers that you may find healing in a special way and that God will one day make you parents of a healthy baby…and that when you do fall pregnant again, there would be more joy and happiness and less moaning about weight, clothing ect. Much love ** Proud mother to be**