so damn anxsty

from mavenity.org
This is sooo how I feel

I’m on edge, I’ve been on edge for two days now, For two days now I have had no idea why I’m on edge.
I missed my meds for a day, but don’t think I’m quite loony enough to have one day off mild anti depressants throw me off the deep end like this.
I think it’s the when to have a baby when to buy a house, why aren’t you further in your career, what deal with your licence crap that has been rolling around in my head. I go between feeling wayyyy to young for stuff to feeling wayyy to old for stuff, I think it’s that quarter life crisis people are always talking about.
On the one hand I’m all:
– I must still travel the world
– I need more shoes
– I want to attend fancy events
– I want to grow my career
– I want my freedom
Then I think
– Hey we need to invest in a house
– We getting to that parenting age now
– We have to get rid of student loans and so on
– I need to get more sensible shoes (ja right)
Then I’m back to
– But we still so young
– I haven’t done half of what I planned on doing
– there is nothing wrong with renting for now
Then it’s
– actually we not that young
– I am feeling a little broody
– You need to save for the future

AND IT GOES ON AND ON

Sometimes I wish my brain would just shut up, lol

Proudly South African

I come from a sports mad family, I’m not that sports mad myself, but I am patriotic so I support SA regardless, lol
This is my cousin Che-lynn and her daughter Kirsten, the cutest Bokkies 🙂

Staying healthy online…

Because my new meds have this lovely weight gain side effect (hardly seems worth it) I have been boring you guys with my random ideas (most of which never pan out) in my quest  to not become a body double for miss piggy.

And now I think I found a site to help me!!! http://caloriecount.about.com

It looks sorta like this

Instead of just telling me how much calories I’ve consumed in the day (I’ve tried this calorie counting thing before) the site also keeps track of nutrients and vitamins I need (tailored to my body size and needs) and then tells me what I’m doing right and what I’m doing wrong.
All I need to do is enter what I’m consuming throughout the day and it keeps me updated on how I’m doing.
The cool thing is you can download an app for your phone and do it on the move.
I tend to just jot down what I’ve eaten like at breakfast,brunch,lunch,snack time, snack time, supper, snack time (yes i eat lots) and then in the eve I type it up (or I know what I’m planning on eating in the morning already and type it up and then any deviations I just adjust later ) and the best thing is you get a grade for your choices.
So far I’m an A student 🙂 see! I may constantly be eating, but it seems to be the right sort of binging.

Have a great Wednesday…I’m on deadline, wish me luck

Tuesdays are Shoe’s days – The Clair

So years ago I got a job at a radio station (something I always wanted to do and hope to do again some time) and while working there this stunning, sweetheart of a person, Claire Arthur, kinda took me under her wing and showed me the ropes and didnt even get upset when I tripped over these ropes 🙂

Well Claire has always had the best taste in shoes and so it’s only natural that I asked her to share her views on here. (You can catch her on Kingfisher FM these days)

1. You are:
Clair Arthur

2. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

34 (when I buy a pair I try and give a pair away)

3. Why do you think a great pair of shoes has such an effect on women?

Girls like pretty things. We want to be pretty, feel pretty and be seen as pretty. Gorgeous shoes are just an addition to help us get closer to that little pretty girl inside… well that’s how I feel anyway 😉

4. Which shoe are you still searching for?

I don’t go looking for shoes – they come looking for me 😉 ha ha.. just kidding. But seriously I don’t really know what I want until I see it and then once ive tried the shoe on it is all mine!! Then I go home and make it work…

5. Which shoe can’t you believe you actually wore:

I lived in London for a few years and there was this Chinese owned shoe shop on Oxford street that I once visited (ok maybe I visited it more than once). The shoes were so cheap and gorgeous. They had every color boot you can think of (I rather buy many cheap things than one expensive thing – can’t help it – its just how I tick) Anyway I bought a few pairs. A purple pair, green, white and 2 brown pairs. I knew that they wouldn’t last long but while I wore them id feel great. (well almost great) the one day I was walking down the road with the white pair of boots on and my heel got stuck in a drain – long story short – the heel stayed and the boot carried on with me. Limping along it didn’t take long for my trained eye to spot a shoe shop – I pranced straight into the shop and 2 minutes later I was back on the street with another wonderful cheap pair of boots (this pair didn’t have a heel) 😉

6. Fav shoe/style quote:

If the shoe doesn’t fit, must we change the foot?

Gloria Steinem

Claire’s fave shoes:

2 of my fav pairs of shoes J
I found both of them in London