Maternity leave . . . Now what?

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This is my last week at work before I’m home for just over four months and the idea freaks me out. I’m not referring to the late nights, the feeds and the screaming baby, NOPE, I’m referring to the month before he gets here, the month I’m scheduled to be home and REST! That freaks me out. I started working as soon as I turned 16, first doing various temp admin jobs and then in retail, I worked through holidays and during weekends and I have become accustomed to a week off here and a week off there, but never being able to do the long holiday thing with my family…and it was fine, work gave me a sense of purpose and gave my over active mind something to think about…now I’m set for a month of doing nothing! Everyone tells me I need it, that with my medical history it’s best for me and baby which is all good and well and I’m willing to stay at home but THEN WHAT! What shall I be doing with my time?
The baby room is fixed up, his bag is packed…what now? Repack his cupboard, reread the baby magazines, make lists for all the lists I have, freak out that every gas bubble could be indicating preterm labour?
I’ve lined up some craft projects to help with my “pending boredom” but I’m just soooo exhausted and uncomfortable I can’t really do anything productive…my stomach is quite big (big baby, small torso does that – feel like a poodle pregnant with Great Dane puppies) and everyday tasks become quite the pain. Seriously can’t reach most things even when Rob isn’t watching me like a hawk…So what now? What will I be doing while I wait for our lil babe to arrive? Blog I guess…and annoy my mother 😉
Have a great week guys . . . and wish me luck…maybe this is Gods way of teaching me patience, I know I sure as heck need the lessons J

(PS. to the people who find it annoying when I’m not chipper 24/7, you can suck it 😉 – because those that mind don’t matter and those that matter don’t mind)

ANT ATTACK, help needed

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Typing this in car while watching Rob fight off our 9th home invasion of ants in about 6 weeks, this could be the worse one yet! I never think to take pics until its too late and they have scurried off in every which way(so pics dnt show full effect)…but take my word for it, tiny black ants carrying their young into your house from every possible opening, is not a pleasure!!! In fact its disgusting and leaves you feeling gross! Rob is actually considering moving out because they are just THAT relentless 🙁

He is currently spraying them (and has sent me out to get out of the way of the fumes) but like the myth with grey hair…every time he gets one, two pop up in its place…

My investigation (spurred on by a picnic with my 2-year-old niece who then asked me to help her follow them so we can see where ants come from) has me thinking they are in the ceiling…. I have these visions of the inside of our ceiling pitch black and positively vibrating with these little critters…BLEUGH!!!

Ants are currently marching a thousand by a thousand AND IM DONE WITH THEM!

Any ideas apart from ripping the house apart brick by brick (Rob is about 5min from doing that) we have fumigated, tried traps and even baby powder(which has been most successful so far…) But they won't go…HELP!

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Some pre-weekend deepness…

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I’m 32 weeks pregnant today. . . and woke up in such a panic because for the first time in ages, Aidan was not awake before me, in fact every morning I get woken by pretty strong kicks and it has become such a security blanket that his lethargicness freaked me out good and proper this morning.
I did the whole lie on your back and drink cold water thing but NOTHING…with the one year anniversary of Logan’s birth and death less than two weeks away it was panic stations for me!
I already started playing worse case scenario in my head (hated it as a TV show, hate it even more as a mental state) and I couldn’t breath…I tried to go on with my life as much as possible, jump in the shower (and the like), but nothing.
 “He is just asleep”, Rob kept repeating trying to calm me down and although my brain knew I was being silly, my heart refused to do the common sense thing.
This is until I got punched/kicked/nudged so hard I almost toppled over in shock (I’m very round right about now…toppling over is an actual fear these days not an overdramatized reaction).
HE WAS OK! My heart leapt!
He has not stopped kicking since, in fact I would appreciate some lethargicness right about now (Yes! Yes! I’m never happy)….
The whole thing left me wondering, when I would be “ok” when would I be completely secure in his pending arrival, I have 6 weeks until my scheduled C-section and every time someone tells me to enjoy this “magical time” because I am going to miss it, I wish I had actual magic to make them disappear…there is nothing magic about this tension that surges through me (unless those stars I see come from fairy dust)  every time he is “Too busy”, “Too quiet”, “Too high”, Too low” . . .
I have no idea how or where he is supposed to be, except maybe safely tucked into his Moses basket…
This ride has been (or is rather) such a learning curve…I need to learn to leave everything to a higher power, I can drink my meds, rest and pray with all I have inside, but that is it, after the prayer and the planning, it’s actually not in my hands…like the hymn “Lord take the wheel” I need to learn to let the Lord take the wheel and stop stepping on my imaginary passenger side brake whenever things look like they are not going my way . . .
It’s a scary thing, but if I don’t face the night I will never get to see the day
 
Have a great day all J  
 

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And the winner is. . .

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So I launched a competition yesterday that I had planned to run untill my facebook group reached 100 likes. I had no idea I would hit 100 likes quite so fast and by the end of the day I had to chose my winner…. Looking at the list of enteries I realised that I knew (quite liked everyone) who entered so in order to be as fair as possible…I decided to use http://textmechanic.com/Random-Line-Picker.html  as an impartial program to chose a winner….
That winner is CINDY-LEE MATTHYS

Congrads Cindy 🙂
Can’t wait to get started on your prize

Please enter my first competition!!!

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I promised that as soon as my facebook blog group reached it’s first hundred I would give away a prize and with six to go http://www.facebook.com/justellabella.blog it’s time I get ready to give something away. . .  I wanted it to be something personalised and I figure what is more personal than a personalised DIY from me to you 🙂

I had soooo much fun doing the toy box for Aidan’s room (that’s the M side it has a A on the other) I thought why not do a letter on canvas for whoever wins my prize 🙂

Due to the logistics of this being my first prize, the winner will have to be from South Africa – 40% of my readers are from other countries so this sucks a little, but I know you guys understand…

All you have to do to enter is comment here (on the blog) or on the fb group and as soon as I pass the 100 like mark on fb, I will chose a winner 🙂 who will be contacted through email…

 

 The prize will look something like the above 🙂  Good luck 🙂

My weekend in pics: celebration stations

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So one of my best friends celebrated a birthday this weekend…It was her first as a mom, of two nogal (she had twins, Blake and Riley, the end of last year) so she celebrated in style with a high tea themed party organized by her big sis, Cindy (the friend who gave me my much cherished “too beautiful for earth” necklace) and good friend Jenine – they went all out with everything from food to flowers J
Happy birthday Robyn…
 
Our God-daughter Zoey (daughter of life long friend, Revinia) also celebrated a birthday this weekend, she turned two and made me feel pretty old as my mind is convinced she was born just yesterday. . .
 
 
My friend Yolande’s son Samuel also celebrated this weekend…he had his dedication, my ridiculously swollen feet and legs stopped me from celebrating with the blue-eyed beauty yesterday, but I was definitely there in spirit as this adorable boy will always have a special place in my heart
 

 

 
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