Very excited that we are bringing fashion collages back with this seasons MUST HAVE the trench! Welcome back SAl
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Fashion is back!!!
Late night art attack
So tonight (yes its after midnight)- for no reason I can think of -I thought I’d try my hand at sketching, usually if I’m feeling creative I’d grab my camera or sewing kit or even record a song but tonight I saw robs art supplies and thought,why not?
I have NO delusions of “undiscovered talent” but am pretty proud of my first attempt 🙂
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Real life heroes
I have a friend, she’s classy and beautiful, funny and selfless, she watches sport with the boys and drinks (virgin) cocktails with the girls.
She tells it like it is and genuinely cares.
So when the dr told her “it doesn’t look good” the hoards of friends she made over the years were devastated, how now? what now! It sucks that we can’t help!
But my friend doesn’t let the doctors words spook her, she doesn’t let them get to have the last say. With her patented “it will be ok” smile she takes on the world daily and continuously kicks cancer’s ass and what’s more? SHE DOES IT IN STILLETOS AND CORAL LIPSTICK!!!
KAYLA you inspire me!
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Due to you
Its supposedly my due date today, supposed to be 🙁
I took the week off because I just don’t want to face any1, being strong every day really takes it out of you, and today I don’t want to be strong! I don’t want to be careful of others feeling, I don’t want to be sure not to make others uncomfortable, my life is uncomfortable enough, the pain u feel imagining yourself in our situation is a fraction of what we live with, so today I just couldn’t care less.
I just want my son! I want to understand why everyone else gets to be pregnant then give birth then bring baby home, complain about pyjama drills and stretch marks and then take a billion pics of their baby and brag to any1 with a few minutes.
Meanwhile I’m that “poor girl”, shame “that one” the one who lost her baby, who never got to see him alive! The one whose baby is dead!/dood!/gone!not on earth anymore THAT GIRL!
The one who needs to “move on” to “try again” who “Is still young,with plenty of time”
Today I don’t care how strong ppl think I am! Today I want Logan safely in my arms, I want the aching inside to subside so I can breath! I want ppl to shove their advice where the sun doesn’t shine. You don’t know “exactly how I feel” if u haven’t put your hopes,dreams and love into a gorgeous bundle of joy and then have it ripped away from you, YOU DONT KNOW!
I appreciate the support I’m blessed by the care, but today I think I’m allowed to hurt, because you know what,
IT HURTS!!!!
I feel stupid and out of place and unfinished while everyone else who was pregnant around time I was has babies, IT HURTS and today I’m letting it hurt, tomorrow ill put big girl panties on, today, ill let tears fall freely, feel sorry for myself, and just think, IT SUCKS! Logan should be here, I’ll learn to live with it but today IT SUCKS
– Thanx to every1 who is there for me, and don’t worry about me today, it needs to be really dark before you see the light
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My weekend in pics
I had one of those weekends when you do so much and yet so little it kinda passes in a flash, I had my phone with me though so I was able to capture some memories:
– It was our church’s bazaar this weekend, I usually do face-painting (have for over 6 years) but this year I was just not up for it, too emotionally drained maybe, hopefully I’ll be back in the swing of things next year. I got to spend time with my God daughter Zoey (15month) and my “niece” Taylor though 🙂
– I went to a very close friend’s baby shower after. Danelle and I were due a week apart and shared everything on the journey, we teased that its like we were each carrying one of a set of twins so attending her shower, knowing there’s no more Logan, was a bitter sweet experience, it’s a strange feeling to be both extremely happy for someone else and sad for yourself at the same time. I had a blast though, its amazing what you can achieve when u remind yourself, “its not about you, true friendship trumps uncomfortability”. Can’t wait for little Hananiah
– That eve I went out for wine and live entertainment, but not before “the hostess with the mostest” Salama made us some super yum snacks at their place-so this weekend was basically,”diet? What diet”. Oh it turns out, NO ALCOHOL FOR ELLE anymore. After the wine my inflammation situation flared up back to stage 1 and the meds were working so well 🙁 but hey, at least I know now.
-Sunday, I did some shopping with Rob, wanted jeans (ones that actually fit!!!) But I’m not prepared to wear old lady pants so I’m waiting for diet and exercise to work before I get new jeans and settled for 2 tops. I also “helped” my sister study, don’t know if I did anything except help keep her awake,hehe
That was my weekend 🙂
Hope you enjoyed yours
A new home for my mind
My blog has a new look 🙂
Why? well because my life has a new look.
It feels in many ways that since Logan died my life has gone into technicolour. My highs are higher and my lows are lower, in general everything is just more and I thought my blog should portray that, it should be more and show off all the aspects of me.
The overwhelming heartache that comes from losing my son, the happiness that comes from spending time with friends and family, the joy that comes from my relationship with God and just my views on everyday life.
I love fashion, I love food, I love photography and I love being able to share my life with so many amazing people, I also love blogging; it’s put in touch with so many great people. (Just wish more of you would comment here and not just on twitter and fb-I love being able to interact with readers-also please leave links to your blogs so I can check them out)
Heres the format I’m hoping my blog will take:
(Inbetween general chats and vents and finally finishing this picture challenge eventially)
MONDAY: my weekend in pictures
TUESDAYS: News day (anything in news that moves me)
WEDNESDAY: Web day (what ever I’m liking on the interweb)
THURSDAY: Her day (her is me and its DIY, Pics – anything Im into this week)
FRIDAY: Food and fashion (resturant reviews from me and hubby and the Sal’s VERY POPULAR collages)
SATURDAY: Outfit posts (Im not making promises on this one)
* Well this is my mind’s new home, welcome 🙂
