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Feeling slightly grey

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I haven’t blogged in a while, just been sooooo busy, seriously I fall asleep at the drop of a hat and spend most of the day feeling like a zombie. I get up at 5.30am to get ready for work and unless I’m really lucky I’m at the office until six every night and reach home at 7pm.
Meanwhile my ever expanding girth makes it difficult to maneuver around and people’s insensitive comments makes it difficult not to smack them (a lady at doctor’s office-old friend of my gran’s- who assumed i was there because I was sick tells me I’d be less sick if I looked at my diet “you are really fat now” another woman tells me that being pregnant is no reason to let myself go which was really nice to hear as the baby’s really low position actually makes simple things like walking difficult and my water retention problem has me looking like a stuffed toy)
At the same time I’m going through a bit of a quarter life crisis thing (its a few weeks before my birthday, it always happens) I feel like Im just not living up to my potential like I should be doing something more with my life. I know I’m not alone on this as a few of my friends seem to be going through the same, “so is this it? shouldn’t I be doing more” dilemma.
My theory for myself is that I’m one of those “Jack of all trades, master of none” kinds who don’t have one talent that stands out enough for THAT to be what I should be doing with my life.
Maybe it’s boredom, maybe it’s over 6 months with no wine or sushi? I don’t know, all I know is that, apart from being extremely excited about the husband coming home and baby being born, I don’t feel very anything, I feel Grey! ja that’s it, if Grey was an emotion that would be my emoticon . . .

Good riddance to the week

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So I’m reading this book “Thursdays at Eight” by Debbie Macomber (I always have a book to keep me entertained during the train ride to work) the book has these quotes from different people to start off each chapter and the quote at the start of the chapter I read today really struck a cord with me.
“Expecting life to treat you well because you are a good person is like expecting an angry bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian-Shari R. Barr”
I think it struck a cord because this week ROYALLY SUCKED!!!!! like if it was a vacuum it would be one of those they show on TV that can pick up a man holding a bowling ball.
I think most people would have been upset if they were in my shoes this week and having a hormone overload and not being allowed alcohol, didn’t help at all!
I’m extremely aware that my week could have been a hundred times worse, but I also believe that just because someone else looses a leg, doesn’t mean your feet can’t still hurt, my sentiment may seem uncaring, but the point I’m trying to make is that pain/heartache/sucking days are all relative.
My week managed to suck on all 3 phases: WORK LIFE, FAMILY LIFE and SOCIAL LIFE, but at the same time I find myself feeling grateful.
Grateful that I have a job to annoy me, a family to flabbergast me and friends who I care for enough to upset me in this way.
When all is said and done I’m an extremely blessed person and I’m going to try and be more positive, albeit TRY for now.

Blog post dedicated to a friend

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Today’s blog post was supposed to be about my new fascination with cameo jewellery but in light of other happenings that seems rather inconsequential.
A close friend lost her partner and father of her children last night and the very thought breaks my heart, this particular friend (don’t want to mention names in case she is not comfortable with it) is the type you can always run to in time of need and to see her or even think of her (she is out of town) this distraught, is really sad. I didn’t know him well but know from stories that he was a good man and great father. It breaks my heart that she is currently pregnant and has a baby daughter too-it just doesn’t seem fair.
He was very young only 30 and I think what makes it worse is that it was so sudden, no warning no nothing.
If you are reading this my friend I wish you all the best, nothing I can say can make it better, but know I’m here for you no matter what.

LOVE YOU ALWAYS: ELLE

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Today’s post was supposed to be all these photos from last weekend’s family time (my aunt’s birthday breakfast and our annual family Christmas party) I downloaded it and everything,but the husband grabbed my camera for his sisters graduation this morning without leaving my flash behind (I told him it’s in pouch and you can see it thru mesh!!!but NOOOOO)  anyway he has it so I can’t upload (wanted to strangle him, which I’m putting down to preggy hormones, cause I’m not usually this irrational) Anyways that’s the joys of co-habitation for you!

Will upload tomorrow, have a good Thur, I’m gonna spend most of mine hiding my face – It’s super bloated  I’m peeling badly 🙁

I once met a lady with wings

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I did hey she walked in a business suit and a pair of fairy wings and introduced herself as a fairy godmother, turns out she is a ex all out career type who had a bit of a break down and then gave up the rat race to make other peoples dreams come true. Then there was the woman who was partially paralyzed in an accident as a young woman, fought her way back to health, learnt to speak write and walk all from scratch and ended up working with disabled people, showing them they can do anything they put their minds too, now she’s retired and works with the less fortunate. Then there was this woman who had a massive brain tumor, most people had given up on her recuperating, but she did and went on to paint some of the most beautiful paintings I have ever seen and write a very successful book. Then there was the man who had advanced stage cancer, he was given weeks to live, but he wasn’t ready to give up his wife and family –  that was a year ago.

I met all these people through my job as a reporter, there are tons more, but I just can’t remember them all right now. All these people who have beaten the odds, gone just that one step further than expected and gave back in amazing ways.
I hope I can be like one of those people, one day. Not just living life and no longer basing what I have on my bank balance or what the Jones’s have,  but really living! using what I have and what talents I have been given to make a difference, no matter how small 🙂
That’s my almost end of the year resolution, LIVE THE LIFE YOU HAVE NOW, IT COULD BE TAKEN AWAY AT ANY SECOND AND IMAGINE HOW SAD YOU’D BE IF YOU REALISE YOU HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR A ONE DAY THAT MIGHT NEVER COME