I dreamt about Aidan last night, it was so weird, he was so lively and beautiful and although I couldn’t remember actually giving birth to him in the dream I had this overwhelming feeling of “he is mine” I couldn’t deny the love I have for this boy…crazy, beautiful….and I can finally say, exciting, it is roughly 3 months until I get to hold him and I just cant wait.
A cleaning lady at work stopped me this morning, looked at my tummy and exclaimed “pregnant again!” I was just about to get defensive when she added that she thought I was extremely brave and that she had lost her own daughter years ago and had never had the guts to try again, and now it was too late for her…she told me to never lose my faith and I thought that was so profound, here this woman who hardly knows me tells me she is inspired by my faith… and then her faith in me sparks new hope to do just that, to keep the faith…
Faith I grip on to so tightly sometimes because I notice there is so little of it left and I just need to not lose my mind, other times I swim in a vast sea of faith, this positive, everything will be alright feeling that floats around me and leaves me feeling like things will be ok…I like that, today I’m right there – Feeling that things will be ok and I will get to hold my rainbow soon 🙂
Have a great day and keep the faith…
It’s really faith (and a lot of guts, I think). I was next to a woman in the maternity UIF line when the woman who sat next to me had a baby. The baby before that one died about a year ago- shame it was sad, because of a flu. And here this lady tried again and she was blessed.