So it’s been raining a lot lately, so much that I started worrying about Logan’s grave…The new ones always get destroyed in the storms.
We got there and CONFUSION set in, all the new graves showed storm damage, mud and rocks everywhere, except the grave I assumed was Logan’s. That one seemed untouched.
His grave stood neatly, with the flowers we had left, but strangely little glass pots were added as vases, plastic bottles were filled with flowers and water, and there stood a white cross with a giant wooden heart, but no name.
I didn’t understand! This is where I thought he was, who placed the stuff there? Or what if I was at the wrong grave, how could we not know where our little boy is!?!
Queue the tears 🙁 feeling like the worst parents ever.
We asked all the family members we could think of, and they were confused too, no1 had cleaned up or placed the objects there.
Its been more than two days of asking everyone we can think of, the council, the funeral undertakers, everyone.
They were all confused, one of the care takers told us this grave had been visited by a young couple (not us) maybe it was them. More confusion!
My dad saw how everything was upsetting me and went to ask everyone one last time. While he was there another caretaker showed up and revealed all…
Turns out, a caretaker was listening when the Monday after the funeral I told Robin how bad I felt that there was no marker on grave and that it looked so unkept. I was sad because they said to wait for ground to set before we can build a little memorial thing and put up a headstone and I didn’t like the idea of leaving him looking so unloved and un-cared for (the headstone I want is going to take some saving up – they are surprisingly expensive and we certainly didn’t budget for it) so turns out the caretaker took pity on us and has been keeping Logan’s grave neatend up and put the cross there so I knew where he was.
I know he expected some payment but I must say it still warms my heart to have someone looking out for Logan when I couldn’t.
Also to the young couple whoever you are, I appreciate the visits 🙂