So many of my worst fears have been realised in my life you would think I’d have a nonchalant attitude by now…in a way I do, but at the same fears are inevitable.
 I’m learning that there is not much you can do about most fears except give it over to God so I think I’ll take today’s challenge a little further and put the fears I list in Gods hands as I type…
 here are 8 fears in random (as I think of them) order

1. I fear losing this baby, I want to be his/her mother (here on earth) so badly it hurts
2. I fear losing my family and friends (the losses of the past year have me feeling like I’m walking on egg shells)
3. I fear never losing all the baby weight (and it’s lots), I know this one sounds super petty, but its a legitimate fear. For now I’m ok with my body shape as I’m growing life and all BUT I don’t want to be this round for very long after, I’m too short to pull off the extra weight without looking uncomfortable and I know working off two pregnancies worth of weight will take more than a 3 day detox
4. I fear hurting people I care about, I never want to be the reason for someone else’s pain
5. I fear making the wrong decisions when it comes to my career, how do you know which path is the RIGHT one
6. I fear doing anything that could endanger my unborn child, theres no “real reason” for Logan’s death so how can I be sure
7. I fear going on stage, I used to LOVE LOVE performing, singing and acting were my thing but in recent years the thought makes my blood run cold
8. I fear disappointing others, this is probably why I’m so darn tired the whole time