Songs for my Sons

I love music . . . but weirdly so, every CD in our house+car belongs to Robin and its really not often that you will find me replaying a song more than a couple of times unless it REALLY speaks to me (usually in a foreign language-Love Carla Bruni) that being said, you would be hard pressed to find anyone who has spent a couple of days with me without hearing me break out into song or  hum a little tune. When I was younger I LOVED the stage…then some stage fright set in and I opted to do back-up vocals for DJS which meant you could hear my voice but didn’t know where it came from, these days I mostly hum to entertain myself.
 
I always imagined I’d sing to my babies…from womb to  big school (I seem prone to having sons and don’t think they’d appreciate random singing after a certain age) I started with Logan and know that singing to him in my mind got me through some tough times, but with Aidan I just couldn’t, I don’t know if it was my hearts way of protecting me? Because I used to play Carla Bruni to Logan all the time and now her music seems to have lost it’s spark and the song “Jesus wants me for a Sun beam” has become a instant tear jerker…
 
Robin loves my singing and really wants me to sing to baby and even my  doctor was encouraging me, telling me how she wishes she could sing and how she had to settle for CD’s while she was pregnant…
I thought about it, but just couldn’t bring myself to sing the traditional lullabies, maybe it’s because I don’t like the idea of bough breaking and cradles falling…
 
Any way Aidan was particularly restless last night and I thought lets try this singing thing… I went with two of my favourites… “Dream a little dream” by Mammas and Pappas  and  “Smile” by Nat King Cole and would you know it…it worked 🙂
 
DREAM A LITTLE DREAM
 
Stars shining bright above you
night breezes seem to whisper

I love you
Birds singin’ in the sycamore tree

Dream a little dream of me.
Say “nighty night” and kiss me

just hold me tight and tell me

you’ll miss me.
While I’m alone and blue as can be

Dream a little dream of me.

Stars fading
but I linger on
dear

still craving your kiss
I’m longing to linger til dawn
dear

Just saying this:

Sweet dreams til sun beams find you

sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you.
But in your dreams
whatever they be

dream a little dream of me.

Stars fading
but I linger on
dear

still craving your kiss.
I’m longing to linger til dawn
dear

just saying this:

Sweet dreams til sun beams find you

sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you.
But in your dreams
whatever they be

dream a little dream of me.

Sweet dreams til sun beams find you

sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you.
But in your dreams
whatever they be

dream a little dream of me.

Sweet dreams til sun beams find you

sweet dreams that leave our worries behind you.
But in your dreams
whatever they be

dream a little dream of me.

 
 
SMILE
 
Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you’ll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what’s the use of crying?
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what’s the use of crying?
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

  
Meanwhile someone sent me a link to a song by Pink (the only artist I can think of where I’d go out of my way to attend a concert), which is said to deal with child loss, it’s such a powerful ballad and connects me with my other son, Logan….
 
BEAM ME UP
 
There’s a whole n’other conversation going on
In a parallel universe
Where nothing breaks and nothing hurts
There’s a waltz playing frozen in time
Blades of grass on tiny bare feet
I look at you and you’re looking at me

Could you beam me up,
Give me a minute, I don’t know what I’d say in it
Probably just stare, happy just to be there holding your face
Beam me up,
Let me be lighter, tired of being a fighter,
I think, a minutes enough,
Just beam me up.

Some black birds soaring in the sky,
Barely a breath like our one last say
Tell me that was you, saying goodbye,
There are times I feel the shiver and cold,
It only happens when I’m on my own,
I tell ya, tell me, I’m not alone

Could you beam me up,
Give me a minute, I don’t know what I’d say in it
I’d Probably just stare, happy just to be there, holding your face
Beam me up,
Let me be lighter, tired of being a fighter,
I think, a minutes enough,
Just beam me up.

In my head, I see your baby blues
I hear your voice and I, I break in two and now there’s
One of me, with you

So when I need you can I send you a sign
I’ll burn a candle and turn off the lights
I’ll pick a star and watch you shine

Just beam me up,Give me a minute, I don’t know what I’d say in it
Probably just stare, happy just to be there, holding your face
Beam me up,
Let me be lighter, tired of being a fighter,
I think, a minutes enough,
Beam me up
Beam me up
Beam me up
Could you beam me up.

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