Time to learn from the best. . .

It’s my last day at work today,  from tomorrow I wait for my life to be changed completely…I’m a routine type of person, getting up, taking the train with a smoothie/coffee and a good book, getting to work before everyone else then  settling in and tackling the day is how I do things (it’s my norm)…well not from tomorrow, tomorrow I wake up and apart from doctors appointments, I’m expected to stay in bed and “incubate” Oh how the anxiety of a lack of routine is eating at me… I see a lot of hanging out watching my mom work in my future, I usually LOVE LOVE being alone, I really do but I’m suddenly like a little child who wants to be checked on, my mom says I’m aging in reverse as I was a fiercely independent kid who loved to be left alone now I’m the “what you doing” type.
Anyway I see a lot of bothering her in my future, which is funny because like me she prefers her alone time and unlike me she is not afraid to say it, seriously my mom will look you straight in the eye and say, “don’t you have some place to be I want to take a nap”…(I had to get her  to wash my hair last night because the logistics of tummy and basin were not working for me-she argued that two weeks shy of my 28th birthday she must have done more than her share  of ‘taking care of me’ by now and that she should be allowed to opt out, because even fathers who pay child support are done by 18)- even with her sassiness love her to bits and know she has a lot to teach me about being a mom.
She had me when she was pretty young and says she never quite knew what to do with me (apparently I started the teenage angst thing around the age of 7) she also spent a lot of time at work when I was growing up, but she always had time for me, making much of my toys – from dolls to play dough – and always being willing to stop whatever it was she was doing to give me (and my siblings) attention…she was the one who taught me to skip rope and even challenged me on the jungle gym and swings (to this day she beats me on all of those), we didn’t have much, but I always had the knowledge that I was loved and wanted, and that’s the most important thing I want for Aidan, I want him to know that he is “Wanted”  . . .
I’ll be blogging whenever I get the chance/inspiration. I REALLY REALLY cant wait to introduce our lil boy to all of you J  

 
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