So it’s official I’m a student again!
I attended my first web based class last night and very nearly ran away…
I’m studying towards an accredited digital marketing diploma which I hope to use on the blog and also with Oh!boy.
I love learning new things and often sign up for short little self encrichment courses, but this one is way more serious, there are weekly assignments and a final exam!!!
I know some people are probably rolling their eyes at me thinking,uhm what did she think exactly? well I don’t know, I suddenly feel so unclever (see I could not even think of the proper word to go there).
School/studying always came fairly easy to me, I was not top of the class but I have always maintained a B/C average without much effort and failing never entered my mind.Now it’s the only thing entering it. Maybe it’s similar to why I don’t like seeing guys who were into me during my University days ( now in my trying to fit back into pre pregnancy jeans days). I prefer not to taint their image of me. Maybe that’s it, perhaps I do not want to taint my own image of me, because as far as I know I’m still the girl who brings home distinctions, maybe I don’t want to discover that’s not me anymore.I swear as the lecturer was giving dates for assessments I was giving reasons why dropping out on day one is a completely reasonable option… It’s not like I want to become a digital marketer per say, I already have a diploma in print media and in broadcast media, so really this it is just greedy. My time could be better spent.With loadshedding I could lose my wifi connection at any minute, it’s better not to get too vested in it right now.
It’s weird this fear thing. Age has made me much less brave, as a youngen I would rollerblade backwards down a hill, now the thought is INSANE! “do you know how you could hurt yourself” I could party till the early hours of the morning “but then who will watch YouTube and drink Milo?”. I would see everyday as an excuse to dress up (I had that as a motivational poster on my bedroom wall and was once voted most stylish media person) now I’m like; “which pair of black leggings will I pair with my comfortable shoes today”.
That right there is why I’m sticking it out in this course, come what may, I need to challenge my belief system a little. Be daring (cause quiting my job, getting a refresher course in needlework and starting a kids label was not daring, hehehe)
But you get me, I’ve become too complacent, too frumpy, too mom! it’s time I look into what exactly it is being JustEllaBella!
and scene, so dramatic this Eleanor woman…I do take cute pics though,check it out on instagram, or tweet me or fb me or pinterest me 🙂
I attended my first web based class last night and very nearly ran away…
I’m studying towards an accredited digital marketing diploma which I hope to use on the blog and also with Oh!boy.
I love learning new things and often sign up for short little self encrichment courses, but this one is way more serious, there are weekly assignments and a final exam!!!
I know some people are probably rolling their eyes at me thinking,uhm what did she think exactly? well I don’t know, I suddenly feel so unclever (see I could not even think of the proper word to go there).
School/studying always came fairly easy to me, I was not top of the class but I have always maintained a B/C average without much effort and failing never entered my mind.Now it’s the only thing entering it. Maybe it’s similar to why I don’t like seeing guys who were into me during my University days ( now in my trying to fit back into pre pregnancy jeans days). I prefer not to taint their image of me. Maybe that’s it, perhaps I do not want to taint my own image of me, because as far as I know I’m still the girl who brings home distinctions, maybe I don’t want to discover that’s not me anymore.I swear as the lecturer was giving dates for assessments I was giving reasons why dropping out on day one is a completely reasonable option… It’s not like I want to become a digital marketer per say, I already have a diploma in print media and in broadcast media, so really this it is just greedy. My time could be better spent.With loadshedding I could lose my wifi connection at any minute, it’s better not to get too vested in it right now.
It’s weird this fear thing. Age has made me much less brave, as a youngen I would rollerblade backwards down a hill, now the thought is INSANE! “do you know how you could hurt yourself” I could party till the early hours of the morning “but then who will watch YouTube and drink Milo?”. I would see everyday as an excuse to dress up (I had that as a motivational poster on my bedroom wall and was once voted most stylish media person) now I’m like; “which pair of black leggings will I pair with my comfortable shoes today”.
That right there is why I’m sticking it out in this course, come what may, I need to challenge my belief system a little. Be daring (cause quiting my job, getting a refresher course in needlework and starting a kids label was not daring, hehehe)
But you get me, I’ve become too complacent, too frumpy, too mom! it’s time I look into what exactly it is being JustEllaBella!
and scene, so dramatic this Eleanor woman…I do take cute pics though,check it out on instagram, or tweet me or fb me or pinterest me 🙂
