Taking responsibility…

I feel pretty awful and it’s all my fault.
While I would never allow my boys to not take meds or follow doctors orders I’m not nearly as strict on myself and have ended up worse for wear as a result…
My physio had given me a list of exercises to bring back core strength…stomach muscles where destroyed with the two emergency c-sections so my back has had to work extra hard… I stopped the exercises on day 4 due to just not having time and never signed up for pilates as suggested.
I also haven’t lost a single kilogram from diabetic diet (for insulin resistance) probably because I was just so weak this holiday and gave in to all the temptations (damn you sugar)
Then there is my high blood pressure it got so bad recently that doctor thinks it might be reason for my edema (swollen limbs and moon face) I thought it was just heat but after 4 days I had to get it checked out…when my blood pressure first showed signs of constantly being high I was put on meds and told to try and relax… I totally misplaced meds and we all know I’m not about relaxing…
I keep forgetting my iron supplements which is pretty lame for someone who is anaemic and whose count was so low at last test…..
I know I sound pretty sick and irresponsible but actually I’m not THAT sick
I’m anaemic,have ibs,am insulin resistant and have high blood pressure also my back… nothing I can’t handle BUT I haven’t been handling it I’ve been irresponsible and am now paying the sore back,swollen,dizzy,exhausted price…
So today right here right now I vow to take better care of myself if not for me for Rob and Aidy they deserve me at my best πŸ™‚ better diet, better control of meds and supplements, exercise and trying to relax and not let myself get worked up…. here goes nothing

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