March scares me! Your birthday month is supposed to be joyous, but mine scares me! This month (Thursday to be exact) should be when we celebrate Logan’s birthday but instead we commemorate 2 years since his death the next day…March is also a year since my Godmother died without getting to meet Aidan, in fact I was in hospital with him during her funeral…now this March another aunt whom I’m extremely close to is due for an operation and as we pray for her health and reminisce on those lost I find myself scared and cautious, I don’t want it, no the whole idea makes me want to opt out…I get a lump in my throat and a sudden bout of “hay fever” just thing about it…so wake me up in april b4 aidan’s birthday(still lots to do) but after all these trigger dates which await me like a movie where you know the ending is sad but can’t help but watch anyway and cry, AGAIN…..
But then again I can’t think or live like that, for the first time in years my birthday is looming and I’m not sick, we haven’t lost anyone and I have something to look forward 2…yeah this March – I pray – will be the turning point….NO FEAR JUST FAITH! ….
Love you always Logan and Aunty Eunice :'(
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